October 5 is International Teacher's day and we spent this day under observation from the principals of the Diocese of Baguio. Many of us if not all, prepared well and didn't sleep well in preparation and agitation of this team observation. And after the long agony, we have to humbly accept our low scores whether we are new or old teachers.
Maybe, their standards are too high and we didn't meet their expectations. Maybe, it was just bad luck that the universe around did not cooperate. But what is most heart breaking of it all is the fact that even if a teacher will give his/her best, s/he will still go unappreciated and worst, hated for being firm in discipline and in guiding these young minds to become better.
That makes the teaching profession so challenging. As a teacher, I should remind myself not find solace and affirmation from superiors nor from students but from God alone. For it is only Him who can understand and accept my limitations. It is Him who guides and inspires me deeper to become better.
In my own standards, I failed in my observation primarily because many of my students did not cooperate well and maybe my efforts were not enough. I have been hated and threatened just because of the desire to straighten the path of a young mind. But no matter what, only God will be the one who will lead me if I will continue or not.
As for now, I'm still in the process of being molded, and guided to become better. Well, five years of teaching is not enough to acquire the tools, skills and talents to become the best teacher that I can be. And as for now, God is teaching me and testing my humility. Though difficult and disappointing, it is in Him whom I gain my strength. It is also Him who continue to give me the joy and inspiration in the midst of my despair.
And as I do my mission, it is also God who is taking good care of the other material and corporal matters and concerns we have in the family.
Thank you, Lord! Muchos Gracias!
2 comments:
I'm so sorry for greeting late, a belated Happy Teachers' Day to you! =)
The principals' evaluation dont speak of how much difference you have made to the lives of your countless students, so cheer up. I think that's what matters.
I believe teachers earn less but is the most fulfilled among many professions.
You reminded me,I should have greeted my son's teacher too. You see, my son used to be scared of not being able to cope up, he would refuse to write during his summer class, but towards the end, he's able to. I rang his teacher and asked how she had handled my son, and said -- "I would hug him while encouraging him to write". For her, she might not even know how big it was for us. So, I hope you'll find gladness that your REAL evaluation is on how much better the world is now because you're moulding students to be righteous members of the community.
thank you Bevs, for your encouragements. It's good to know I have a friend like you thru blogging.
your son's lucky to have a teacher like her. Do thank her for even if it's late already, a simple thanks and acknowledgment adds to her inspiration to love more her students. Just like what your message reminded of now.
Salamuch manen and Godbless! :-D
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