Fr. Bacani in our seminar said that if the teacher has the passion, creativity and drive for transformative education will come from it. But if the teacher doesn't believe anymore in what he is teaching, then the passion will die down and it will be just another regular subject, creating students who are successfull in their fields but lacking in conscience and love of God.
To be a CLE (Christian Living Education) teacher is tough. The challenge of this clause: "Walk what you talk" is already tough, I also have to live with sticking with my commitment learning to trust God that I and my career will not become stagnant.Honestly, the low income almost enticed me to transfer to a school where the pay is double and the other one, triple my current income.
Passion to spread the Good New? Yes, I still have that. Yes, I can still fulfill my mission even if I transfer school. But what about God's purpose for me at this time? It is being challenged.
There are two factors affecting my passion:
1. As a young professional, it is the trend to aim where you can get the highest salary ever. That's why even in the field of education, many fresh graduates transfer from one school to the other, always seeking who can give them the highest compensation for their skill and talent. It is a force that even affects me. That's why in the past days, I feel left out because I am the one of the few who remained to stay and people around are still wondering why am I still there? This is somewhat affecting my Passion.
2. In the faculty, I cannot deny that there are people who are bitter and in other words, teachers who lost their passion. They may only be one or two but if one is always with them especially if they are in your department, in one way or the other, they can erase or remove the passion out of you. This already happened to a dear friend, driving her to not to reapply again. It caused a lot of hurt in her part. Maybe she has forgiven her but we all know that the other person can repeat history.
On the other hand, I came to realize that the more that that passion is being challenged, the more that the purpose and mission is being reminded and strengthened. The passion drives me to be the best teacher for this world. My mission nortures this passion. And God's purpose for me gives me the strength to carry on and leads me on the steps that I take.
But what keeps these three intact? Prayer. Somewhere in our seminar, Fr. Bacani also mentioned that if the passion is waning or is already is gone, do not forget PRAYER. Everytime that I feel so down, I still pray even if I don't feel like doing so. Just like last week when I'm planning on a career move, because of prayer, maybe I have totally forgotten God's purpose for me. I could have joined tha band-wagon. Prayer also reminded me that the hardships these days are temporary. I can feel God's promise for me that even in this lifetime, he will go on blessing me and my family. That this story will become a testimony of God's faithfullness.
Sunday, May 25, 2008
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
Anticipating this school year
May 26, 2008 will be the day i'll be reporting for another school year. That would be the first day of enrollment and everybody will be busy again.
For some days now, I am anticipating what would the environment be with the coming of 10 or more new co-teachers. I am excited to know them and work with. Excited also for another chance to continue to learn more and master my craft as an educator. And excited also to know my load: that means, will I be teaching the higher years? Will my Arts 2 load be replaced with the Values Education Subjects? Will the BEC load be given back to us CLE teachers or will they remain to be handled by the advisers? What will be my advisory class? the question goes on and on but I'll have to patiently wait.
(Sigh) but honestly, with the excitement comes the same question that's bothering me for some time now. That is, to stay or follow the trend.
I enjoy my job and service in my alma mater and wish I would stay there 'till retirement but with the exodus of teachers for a greener pasture, I realized that success even in the teaching profession is also composed of good, if not the best financial compensation and appreciation of the administration of its teacher's efforts. Two co-workers who became close friends already resigned and another one is expected to leave after one or two years. My former teachers who became co-workers are also gone.
I don't know until when will this lingering question bother my mind but for this school year, i'll still try to continue mastering my craft. As one line that struck me in our seminar today says: " ...strive not only be the best in the world but be the best 'for' the world whatever your profession is."
For some days now, I am anticipating what would the environment be with the coming of 10 or more new co-teachers. I am excited to know them and work with. Excited also for another chance to continue to learn more and master my craft as an educator. And excited also to know my load: that means, will I be teaching the higher years? Will my Arts 2 load be replaced with the Values Education Subjects? Will the BEC load be given back to us CLE teachers or will they remain to be handled by the advisers? What will be my advisory class? the question goes on and on but I'll have to patiently wait.
(Sigh) but honestly, with the excitement comes the same question that's bothering me for some time now. That is, to stay or follow the trend.
I enjoy my job and service in my alma mater and wish I would stay there 'till retirement but with the exodus of teachers for a greener pasture, I realized that success even in the teaching profession is also composed of good, if not the best financial compensation and appreciation of the administration of its teacher's efforts. Two co-workers who became close friends already resigned and another one is expected to leave after one or two years. My former teachers who became co-workers are also gone.
I don't know until when will this lingering question bother my mind but for this school year, i'll still try to continue mastering my craft. As one line that struck me in our seminar today says: " ...strive not only be the best in the world but be the best 'for' the world whatever your profession is."
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