Monday October 18, 2010 and most of the people are at home preparing and being watchful for the coming of super typhoon Juan.
Usually on a stormy day, I would cuddle myself with a book and a cup of coffee or watch a film. But today, my thoughts are how to make my lesson plan. There is an uncertainty if i'll make a three day plan or two days? From time to time, I check the net for updates on the storm's track from a reliable website i've been using for years now (http://www.maybagyo.com). Here I can see also possible dates and places where the storm's eye could be. And from the development, it says that by two am tomorrow, the storm's eye would be by the South China Sea. That is, if it will not change course or the storm will not slow down.
Another thing that is bothering me is how to squeeze the remaining lesson for the 2nd second grading in a short span of time. There are a lot of things to prepare for. Another concern is on the cheering of our unit. A month from now would be the intrams and the cheerers have not gone yet that far in terms of preparations and organizations. I itch to make my cheerers to win again this year's cheer dance.
Well, other concerns pop up in my mind. The challenge of making the liturgy be recognized in the student's heart, JCM and how to improve them and the formation they are supposed to be having these days. Time goes by so fast but programs are so slow to be implemented. haizt...
My stay as a coordinator might only be for one year for i guess my assignment this year is temporary. Though i don't want it at first, later i see the wisdom of God why he willed me to be here. There are a lot of concepts and ideas popping in my mind but time and cooperation of the people concerned is a big hindrance. Another is my body. My mind and my spirit wants to accomplish therm so fast but my body also do get tired. For the past month, never did i miss getting sick. For the past days, I get dizzy more frequently. haizt manen....
I only have five months and a half left... I just wish that I would be able to accomplish what God wants me to do. From time to time, I am reminded of a sentence I picked up from one of the CYA prayer meetings:"God wants his work advanced in your knees." That's it! never to do the work alone but always remember that God is with me and in prayers he works fast and efficient.
Monday, October 18, 2010
Monday, October 11, 2010
Gaygay
4:00 o'clock today Monday October 11, 2010: after 15 days of deep sleep, our dear Gaygay's sufferings finally ended. She is our first cousin from my dad's 2nd sister. The 2nd of three girls.
A month ago, she was admitted in the hospital for typhoid fever. Her case made it worst because she is a sickly child. She was released from the hospital then went back again for complications. Then on one Monday, she incurred seizure then went into a state of coma.
I came to visit her a week after, that was even the days when the team of principals in the diocesan school is having their observation in our classes. And while i held her limp hand, sadness and deep sadness flowed over me.
She's so young, at sweet sixteen, a first year college and a scholarship waiting for her. Thoughts of which would be better flooded my mind. Would it be better if she will go? Or pray for a miracle?
As she lays there, with the machine which is the only one keeping her alive, she looks so peacefully asleep. But as I look at uncle and auntie, pain is in their eyes. But somewhat, the truth will have to be accepted. Maybe the consolation we quietly realized is that at least there was enough time of joy she gave to her parents for she was conceived when nobody expected auntie to get pregnant. And during her growing up years, she always suffer from migraine. Now, she will feel those sufferings no more. And the most greatest gift our angel Gaygay gave is the reconciliation of my aunts and uncles after a very long time of no communication and indifferences.
I cannot fathom God's wisdom for letting her slip from us, but for sure, she is now an angel resting in the comforts of God's heavenly kingdom guarding and guiding her family.
She also reminds of how short life is and therefore be lived to the fullest in the glory of God.
Rest now, Gaygay dear, your sufferings has now ended. Be the angel your mom and dad needs now. Thank you for briefly spending joy with us. Thank you for reconciling the siblings and may their bonding be restored as brothers and sisters.
A month ago, she was admitted in the hospital for typhoid fever. Her case made it worst because she is a sickly child. She was released from the hospital then went back again for complications. Then on one Monday, she incurred seizure then went into a state of coma.
I came to visit her a week after, that was even the days when the team of principals in the diocesan school is having their observation in our classes. And while i held her limp hand, sadness and deep sadness flowed over me.
She's so young, at sweet sixteen, a first year college and a scholarship waiting for her. Thoughts of which would be better flooded my mind. Would it be better if she will go? Or pray for a miracle?
As she lays there, with the machine which is the only one keeping her alive, she looks so peacefully asleep. But as I look at uncle and auntie, pain is in their eyes. But somewhat, the truth will have to be accepted. Maybe the consolation we quietly realized is that at least there was enough time of joy she gave to her parents for she was conceived when nobody expected auntie to get pregnant. And during her growing up years, she always suffer from migraine. Now, she will feel those sufferings no more. And the most greatest gift our angel Gaygay gave is the reconciliation of my aunts and uncles after a very long time of no communication and indifferences.
I cannot fathom God's wisdom for letting her slip from us, but for sure, she is now an angel resting in the comforts of God's heavenly kingdom guarding and guiding her family.
She also reminds of how short life is and therefore be lived to the fullest in the glory of God.
Rest now, Gaygay dear, your sufferings has now ended. Be the angel your mom and dad needs now. Thank you for briefly spending joy with us. Thank you for reconciling the siblings and may their bonding be restored as brothers and sisters.
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
International Teacher's Day
October 5 is International Teacher's day and we spent this day under observation from the principals of the Diocese of Baguio. Many of us if not all, prepared well and didn't sleep well in preparation and agitation of this team observation. And after the long agony, we have to humbly accept our low scores whether we are new or old teachers.
Maybe, their standards are too high and we didn't meet their expectations. Maybe, it was just bad luck that the universe around did not cooperate. But what is most heart breaking of it all is the fact that even if a teacher will give his/her best, s/he will still go unappreciated and worst, hated for being firm in discipline and in guiding these young minds to become better.
That makes the teaching profession so challenging. As a teacher, I should remind myself not find solace and affirmation from superiors nor from students but from God alone. For it is only Him who can understand and accept my limitations. It is Him who guides and inspires me deeper to become better.
In my own standards, I failed in my observation primarily because many of my students did not cooperate well and maybe my efforts were not enough. I have been hated and threatened just because of the desire to straighten the path of a young mind. But no matter what, only God will be the one who will lead me if I will continue or not.
As for now, I'm still in the process of being molded, and guided to become better. Well, five years of teaching is not enough to acquire the tools, skills and talents to become the best teacher that I can be. And as for now, God is teaching me and testing my humility. Though difficult and disappointing, it is in Him whom I gain my strength. It is also Him who continue to give me the joy and inspiration in the midst of my despair.
And as I do my mission, it is also God who is taking good care of the other material and corporal matters and concerns we have in the family.
Thank you, Lord! Muchos Gracias!
Maybe, their standards are too high and we didn't meet their expectations. Maybe, it was just bad luck that the universe around did not cooperate. But what is most heart breaking of it all is the fact that even if a teacher will give his/her best, s/he will still go unappreciated and worst, hated for being firm in discipline and in guiding these young minds to become better.
That makes the teaching profession so challenging. As a teacher, I should remind myself not find solace and affirmation from superiors nor from students but from God alone. For it is only Him who can understand and accept my limitations. It is Him who guides and inspires me deeper to become better.
In my own standards, I failed in my observation primarily because many of my students did not cooperate well and maybe my efforts were not enough. I have been hated and threatened just because of the desire to straighten the path of a young mind. But no matter what, only God will be the one who will lead me if I will continue or not.
As for now, I'm still in the process of being molded, and guided to become better. Well, five years of teaching is not enough to acquire the tools, skills and talents to become the best teacher that I can be. And as for now, God is teaching me and testing my humility. Though difficult and disappointing, it is in Him whom I gain my strength. It is also Him who continue to give me the joy and inspiration in the midst of my despair.
And as I do my mission, it is also God who is taking good care of the other material and corporal matters and concerns we have in the family.
Thank you, Lord! Muchos Gracias!
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